Dear God,
I won’t lie…but job hunting is exhausting. And not only exhausting but worrisome. My mind is going a thousand miles per hour thinking about how I am going to support myself, paying all my bills and rent. I currently have a job but it’s only part time and I barely make it by. I’ve been trying to get back into the entertainment industry, but honestly, it’s been tough. So I swallowed my pride and got back into the food service industry. And man, let me tell you that here in Los Angeles, the food industry is cut-throat as well! I was talking to this girl and she told me that she’s a waitress in Santa Monica and over 200 people applied to the job. Good lord! Sure I was naive but I didn’t think getting a job as a server was going to be like getting a job as a writer’s assistant (which I sincerely want by the way). Anyway, I’ve been replying to ads on the web, sending my resume, passing my resume to friends, and even reaching out to my professional contacts. I feel like I’m in some sort of cat-and-mouse game, but I’m not even the cat…I’m the cheese. The cheese that just sits there waiting to be picked up by someone and finally getting the recognition I deserve. I understand that I have picked a non-traditional path of entertainment and writing and that I knew that I would have to go through this at some point. Thus, I am keeping my chin up and thank the Universe that I am still able to LIVE. Yes, live. I am alive and healthy and well. I am not by any means depressed as I stay active and productive, finding as much possible opportunities out there. Okay but if I’m really honest what I really want is to really start my career. It’s good and all that I can work a restaurant job but it’s not my passion. I WANT A JOB THAT IS MY PASSION. I WANT TO GET PAID BY DOING MY PASSION. Is that so much to ask, dear God? I am optimistic and positive about the situation. I know in essence that everything will be ok…that I just simply am okay. I just want meaning back into my life and to be doing something that I love to do and that impacts people at the same time. So, I ask you now and forever, to show me the way. I need guidance…I need a SIGN. All I want is that opportunity that will take me to the next level and to make me a better human being. I promise you I will do my very best at whatever that is and serve towards the betterment of society while at it.
Thank you.
Sincerely,
Athena
How do you stay optimistic when everything around you seems sort of bleak? It seems that everywhere I turn, someone is talking about the faltering economy whether it’s a friend, a media personality, a family member, or even myself. It was this time last year that I felt the economic downturn as my whole department at the cable network I was working at was obliterated. Was I scared about being laid off? Sure I was. It was my first real job out of college and that meant my bread and butter…my means to survive. But did I stay down in the dumps because of something I had no control over? Heck no. In truth, I was pretty excited to have been laid off. After months of being at the job, I knew it really wasn’t where I wanted to be for the rest of my life. So being laid off for me was like a sign from the Universe to get moving toward what I truly desired to do in my life. Oh and what is it exactly that I want to be doing? Writing and producing TV and films. Luckily, I had some savings so I wasn’t put in a dire situation (like not being able to pay rent). Eventually I found a temporary job over the summer which did help me a little. But the point is, I didn’t fall into depression because I had no regular income. Even now as I write this post, I am currently unemployed. But while doing odd, temp work or truly not having work, I was always optimistic. I still am optimistic. In the months after my layoff, I actually started working on my own personal projects and eventually produced a presentation reel for a TV show that I created. Now I am ready to show it to the people who can (and willingly) help me bring my vision to reality. God help me. Also, I’ve finished the first draft of a feature. So I am stoked even though I am not making any money right now…But I truly believe that my needs will be met somehow, someway. It’s all about right timing, positive affirmation, and pro-activity (yes, I go out and meet many people in the industry to network and to just be inspired). Anyway, I truly believe that you can choose to be optimistic despite the economy or any external factor that may be affecting you. Optimism is a state of mind or really more like a lifestyle. And when you’re optimistic, you’re naturally happier in any given situation. Even when shit gets thrown your way like unexpected expenses, you can still choose to be calm and see the light at the end of the tunnel. The other day, I was driving in Beverly Hills (actually I was at a complete stop) when the car in front of me started backing up. Now, I was like 15 feet away from him but I guess he stepped on the gas a little to hard as he was reversing because the next thing I knew I heard a loud CRUNCH. Yeah, he took out my front light. I was seriously about to cry because I knew this would cost me. But I stayed calm and reserved and the man took all the blame. Thankfully, his insurance will take care of it. At that moment of impending disaster, I chose calmness over sadness or even aggression because I knew that what was done was done..and there’s no changing it. What I can do is to not add any unnecessary stress on my health or another’s. Anyway, I am finally developing the philosophy that whatever comes your way, just take it with ease and grace because life is really too short to cry over spilled milk. And when you’re not focused on the chaos and confusion of the outside world, that’s when you can see the opportunities and signs in order for you to live your best life now.
