Dear God,
I won’t lie…but job hunting is exhausting. And not only exhausting but worrisome. My mind is going a thousand miles per hour thinking about how I am going to support myself, paying all my bills and rent. I currently have a job but it’s only part time and I barely make it by. I’ve been trying to get back into the entertainment industry, but honestly, it’s been tough. So I swallowed my pride and got back into the food service industry. And man, let me tell you that here in Los Angeles, the food industry is cut-throat as well! I was talking to this girl and she told me that she’s a waitress in Santa Monica and over 200 people applied to the job. Good lord! Sure I was naive but I didn’t think getting a job as a server was going to be like getting a job as a writer’s assistant (which I sincerely want by the way). Anyway, I’ve been replying to ads on the web, sending my resume, passing my resume to friends, and even reaching out to my professional contacts. I feel like I’m in some sort of cat-and-mouse game, but I’m not even the cat…I’m the cheese. The cheese that just sits there waiting to be picked up by someone and finally getting the recognition I deserve. I understand that I have picked a non-traditional path of entertainment and writing and that I knew that I would have to go through this at some point. Thus, I am keeping my chin up and thank the Universe that I am still able to LIVE. Yes, live. I am alive and healthy and well. I am not by any means depressed as I stay active and productive, finding as much possible opportunities out there. Okay but if I’m really honest what I really want is to really start my career. It’s good and all that I can work a restaurant job but it’s not my passion. I WANT A JOB THAT IS MY PASSION. I WANT TO GET PAID BY DOING MY PASSION. Is that so much to ask, dear God? I am optimistic and positive about the situation. I know in essence that everything will be ok…that I just simply am okay. I just want meaning back into my life and to be doing something that I love to do and that impacts people at the same time. So, I ask you now and forever, to show me the way. I need guidance…I need a SIGN. All I want is that opportunity that will take me to the next level and to make me a better human being. I promise you I will do my very best at whatever that is and serve towards the betterment of society while at it.
Thank you.
Sincerely,
Athena
