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Overcoming Job Hunting Blues–My letter to God

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Athena
at January 17, 2010 in Empower Me, Life, Work and Career, Spiritual and Goals. 0 Comments

Dear God,

I won’t lie…but job hunting is exhausting. And not only exhausting but worrisome. My mind is going a thousand miles per hour thinking about how I am going to support myself, paying all my bills and rent. I currently have a job but it’s only part time and I barely make it by. I’ve been trying to get back into the entertainment industry, but honestly, it’s been tough. So I swallowed my pride and got back into the food service industry. And man, let me tell you that here in Los Angeles, the food industry is cut-throat as well! I was talking to this girl and she told me that she’s a waitress in Santa Monica and over 200 people applied to the job. Good lord! Sure I was naive but I didn’t think getting a job as a server was going to be like getting a job as a writer’s assistant (which I sincerely want by the way). Anyway, I’ve been replying to ads on the web, sending my resume, passing my resume to friends, and even reaching out to my professional contacts. I feel like I’m in some sort of cat-and-mouse game, but I’m not even the cat…I’m the cheese. The cheese that just sits there waiting to be picked up by someone and finally getting the recognition I deserve. I understand that I have picked a non-traditional path of entertainment and writing and that I knew that I would have to go through this at some point. Thus, I am keeping my chin up and thank the Universe that I am still able to LIVE. Yes, live. I am alive and healthy and well. I am not by any means depressed as I stay active and productive, finding as much possible opportunities out there. Okay but if I’m really honest what I really want is to really start my career. It’s good and all that I can work a restaurant job but it’s not my passion. I WANT A JOB THAT IS MY PASSION. I WANT TO GET PAID BY DOING MY PASSION. Is that so much to ask, dear God? I am optimistic and positive about the situation. I know in essence that everything will be ok…that I just simply am okay. I just want meaning back into my life and to be doing something that I love to do and that impacts people at the same time. So, I ask you now and forever, to show me the way. I need guidance…I need a SIGN. All I want is that opportunity that will take me to the next level and to make me a better human being. I promise you I will do my very best at whatever that is and serve towards the betterment of society while at it.

Thank you.

Sincerely,
Athena

We are ONE–Dissolving the Ego

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Athena
at November 17, 2009 in Belief, Empower Me, Life, Psychology, Spiritual and Goals. 0 Comments

Have you ever heard of the saying that we are all the same? That the essential part of me is the essential part of you? Yes, I agree that we are made of stars. But go down even deeper and some may say that we are all interconnected. We are ONE soul. Now do I believe this? Yes. In fact, you could think of it as one soul or mind having different interpretations. Thus, you have your own life that you see with your “eyes” as I have the same. We are one.

However, life for the most part (at least in the capitalistic society I live in) seems so fragmented and that people are busy being divided and living individualistically rather than as part of a whole. Unfortunately, these types of attitudes get people and societies in trouble as they argue and in the end battle each other for their elusive gold (and kill each other and destroy the Earth while at it). The reason why people act in such ways that ultimately divide is because the ego-self is in control. Now what is the ego-self or ego, you may ask? It is the part of us that constantly thinks and constantly needs reaffirming of its own existence. It is the part that says “I” and creates the illusion of your identity and your individualism. Thus, its very nature is to always create divisions, labels and non-unity (which leads to all sorts of problems for humankind).

Yet it seems to be a pipe dream for everyone to let go of their ego and start working as a whole for the betterment of humankind. Well not entirely. You see, if everyone is really the same thing and is just one thing, then dissolving your own ego would be suffice for the betterment of all. There’s a beautiful and true adage that says: as above, so below. This means that everything is a microcosm or macrocosm of something. Or another way to put it is that you can put forth change in the universe by changing your own universe (your own mind). A lot of people (including myself) have believed that the universe is of effect, meaning that what happened, happened and you are just a product of all things forth and had nothing to do with it (a very victim mentality). Well, I have learned that you have everything to do with it. In fact, you created everything that’s happening to you and that will always happen to you. It is a causal place so that whatever you do has an effect–simply cause and effect. So once you change how you see the world, then everything else changes with it–sort of like a ripple effect.

Now how do you change how you see the world? Well, I really like how Eckart Tolle explains in his book, A New Earth. He basically says that in order to dissolve the ego, you first need to become aware of your thoughts and emotions. The reason for this is that you typically identify yourself with your thoughts and emotions (I am hungry. I am happy. I am sad). But that is false. You are not your emotions or any of your thoughts. You are divine presence. And when you become aware of yourself thinking these thoughts, then they are no longer identified with you because you are outside of them. Then you realize you are much more and much deeper than what you formerly thought you were. You are timeless, divine being.

A step further, you come to the realization that not only is your individual self/body an illusion but everyone else is too. I mean isn’t there only ONE? How can there be a bunch of “individual” persons or souls out there? Well, folks, that’s the GRAND ILLUSION or maya. So whatever you do or say to another is really toward or about yourself; thus, unconditional love is crucial. Once you come to this awareness, then you are able to break free and advance spiritually to become enlightened. It’s not going to be an easy road. Trust me, I am consistently practicing and sometimes (or a lot of the times) the ego finds ways to creep back in and messes you up. But I keep trying and everyday I learn and am more aware and grow as a result. I know achieving true peace of mind is eternal and just plain worth it :)

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